Get Off The Shores!! (29/11/2010)

This is gonna be a short post...=D

This few weeks is a down the hill, sinking, free falling type of week. It seems like my spiritual life had reach a new level of rock bottom desperation and depression. Why? temptations and lack of self discipline and the constant fight between the body and soul to honor and not to honor God. I won't elaborate long, but it's definitely weeks of constant struggle.

But I'm glad is over. And like a phoenix, I'm sure I had resurface stronger and tougher. One thing I learn is that we should always be 100% submissive to the Spirit of God. Cause the enemy is at the door waiting for the slightest moment to strike. Unless we depend on the person that sees the whole picture, we will not be able to go on. And many times, self-discipline is what we need. God has different tasks and expectation from everyone and that's when people start to go wary because our body is always longing to return to the world. So, I'm sure everyone need self-discipline. To control~

And the second is perseverance. Had anyone ever watch WW2 movies of the US marines in the pacific? Often, when they perform amphibious landing on hostile territory, they will be constantly bombed, shelled and fired on in the open beaches. And how do you overcome, there is no turning back to the boats. So they have to push forward, forward to find their enemy and to get out of range of the artillery shelling. And that's exactly what we should do. Even though we are attacked or suffering, we must persevere, to find out the main problems that cause this and to bravely push ourselves forward to a better future. Only that way one can win. Set our eyes on the prize and trust me God's guidance, and surely all suffering will come to pass and we will emerge victorious and stronger.

Romans 5:3-4
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Awakening (11/11/2010)

Basically, I learn a lot today. The past few days, I was in a very not in shape condition. It was like my passion for God is being sipped away. Reason? I think it's because of lack of forgiveness and worrying too much. I always worry about my results. Not because I want good results, but the pressure comes from the fact that I always think that result is an important way to glorify God and I always putting myself at the place where I must score the best. And when I epic failed anything, I would start to get grumpy and stressed up with God.

But thanks to Bro Khay Min video today, I finally realize one thing. The reason why we thanks God. It's not because that we get good grades, not because we have good health, but because of one reason alone. He's good. He saves us, being always close to us and was forgiving and loving. So why shouldn't we praise God even if we get low grades in examinations? I realize that God main priority is not to let people know God because of some Christians getting high grades..This might induce the idea that believe in God and you will get high grades...this is not true! But scoring good grades is actually a stepping stone to introducing the values of God into people's life. To introduce love, wisdom and ultimately, the power of salvation to the loss. It's not by our results but by the touch of God that people are saved. So I must start putting away the perception of scoring very good grades is the way of glorifying God...=D

The other thing that I realize is during the prayer meeting. Bro Chee Lim talked about dry bones and the passage regarding it at Ezekiel. We have the gift of prophesying by God. Not the big scale one such as predicting a Tsunami or H1N1 outbreak. But even a simple detecting by the Holy Spirit the condition of someone can be considered prophesying. So lets start prophesying by the Spirit! =D

As I read the passage, I sense something. I sense two different meaning in dry bones. One is the lost souls which is actually empty and lifeless inside and the other is actually sleeping Christians who are not awakened...And I believe God wants me to be the person to start the awakening of both the lost and sleeping...I can only believe by faith if this is true, but by faith, I want to do this job.

During the prayer meeting, I believe I got another vision from God. If you all know about my vision about the wall of fires, I think it's time to enter the next phase. I saw a battering ram breaking through the city gate. The gate towards the lost souls is breaking, it's time to tear down the wall and capture the city for God, to bring people to God, or in more simple words, I think God wanted me to step out of comfort zone and start to talking about God!! I can't deny, but I need lots and lots and lots of courage in this...

And there was after the prayer meeting, I told Chee Lim about my symptoms of backsliding and how I was getting blurred of my vision and assignment. And he told me that actually, when God give you a job, you don't aimed at completing it directly. God will start to change us, to mature us to the point that we are able to complete our mission and most of the time, God will train us up, to bring us out of the comfort zone and to mold you to be 'qualified' enough to finish the race...

In short, It's time for me to do something new, hopefully God is able to give me the courage that I need or the right situation to do so...God is worthy! Amen!

Here We Go again--

It's been a long time ever since I visited another branch of Protestant Church ; Methodist Church besides Pentacoastal churches. Well, atleast I'm trying to sit for the whole service unlike last time run away halfway before accept Christ. To be honest, I didn't feel that comfortable for the service even though i'm fine with listening in Mandarin because it's all Chinese characters everywhere and I'm BUTA HURUF CINA!!! During Praise and Worship, I tried singing in English at first but i found out it is practically weird...I was like LOL~ I'm quite lost half way because of sudden switching events in between, lukily I have a friend beside to guide me. There's a part i LOL'ed because they ask to sit then stand after 2 sec...I was like huh??O_O?!??... I find there preaching not bad, through it's not English but it's absolutely fine. However, there's a very serious matter occured in the church. I saw many brothers and sisters of Christ  (-.-)ZZZzzzzzzz during the sermon. Oh come on, it's not that bored~
No wonder revivals has been slow all these time,they are not "awake"... My dear brothers and sisters, let's sharpen our sword and tighten our amor of God to prepare ourselves for future war. We don't have much time left brothers and sisters...Please be AWAKEN~

The Incoming Tsunami 7/11/2010

Let's put this thing at categories shall we. Love & Struggle

Love
The season of love had entered, but for the worst. This is not a regular spring, but a rough spring. A new couple was form but I'm sure before everything settle down, there will still be some leftover effects to be solved. I pray that God will approve this relationship. Bless it and make it last! =D

And there are also the not so stable couples. At least two of the couples I know are in such state that I do really hope they will just give up to prevent anymore humiliating commotion, either to themselves or to all. What I think is that couples nowadays do start a bit early. Couples don't know each other well before starting and this often lead to either a premature end or a rough relationship which is the brewing place for troubles. As Christians, let us be a bit matured. Is better to be late but that does not mean one should always be late too, mind you. But like what a leader once said, be prepared mentally for a relationship. Is she the right one? is she suitable and compatible? Am I prepare to commit? Prepare to love like how Christ love the church? And be prepared to marry the girl one day if everything works out? Love each other, tolerate and be patience. For love require patience. Or else, if God love us but was not patience. Then I don't think I will still be standing. Be patience in any circumstances, don't be like North and South Korea, quarelling over matters that will be solved if one was able to put aside it's interest for a greater purpose and ending.

Be grateful that that someone loves you, but do not forget God. I was wondering about some couples who are actually Christian & Buddhist. Well, lets face the fact, one day we will need to face this problem. No matter how sweet one might become, in the end, all maybe lost because of this one problem. So it's better to settle it early. Relationships should honor God, should be something that are suppose to glorify God even more. Yes, we can enjoy each others company. But if God is not in this relationship, think of it, one day it might be a hindrance to your Christian life. For example, King Solomon, the wisest man on earth ultimately fall because of pagan women. A more modern case? My ex( church youth leader )was to resign because he intend to marry his partner of different faith. And guess what now? I heard rumors that they broke up, because they can't come to an agreement to have children because of this issue and the girl threaten to commit suicide if her husband don't comply. So lets get real, try to avoid the problem, but if we are in love, Pray that God will touch your partner heart. Well, that's exactly what I'm hoping for and that's why you still don't see any real initiatives from me. ;)

Struggle
Recently, I heard my classmates talking about how they cheat in exams. The person was so frustrated at how the other was irrational when it comes to trying to get answer out of his friends. "Once, ok, but don't do it everytime at every question at the very beginning when I'm still thinking" said him. And he proceed to say how another classmate who was more rational and only wait until he had completed before asking. He also state one person who lift his exam paper high for the person at the back to see but was called by the graduate assistant to lay it a bit low.........Guess what, ALL the people mentioned inside except the GA are CHRISTIANS!!!!

Come on, we Christians are starting to shame God's face everywhere. I see Christians who are more easily angered than non Christians, I see Christians who complain more than none Christians, I see Christians talking bad of other Christians, I see cheating, I see emotional Christians, I see Christians who don't go for Sunday service, I see Christians who don't make an effort in studies and I see Christians who are despised by others because of these attitudes... Count those factors on top and see how many times God had lost face. I'm not saying that these Christians should be doomed or condemned, even I honestly speaking can't escape some of the list. But what I see is Christians who don't try their best, who are content the way they are and not planning to change.

Then tell me how can we see revival, how can you expect to even convince your friends to church with such attitude. So much times, we blame God because the person we pray for are stubborn before Christ. But let us reflect on our actions and see who we are from others perspectives. God had call us out of this world. And so, we should be light, easily differentiated. If we are just the same as others, then sorry, one cannot expect to see revival.

Revival start from ourselves, we must change, only we can bring change. And if we want to see friends getting save, better start to be MAD, make a difference. Be holy and pleasing before God. Even if it cause us to be feeling weird with others. Lets learn to be more concern of God's view of us then the world view of us. Be firm in faith, be sensitive to sins, be courageous in changing!

I tell you the truth, Christians must awaken, rise up IF one want to see revival in UTP. That's the fact....

With Everything 5/11/2010

For All Your sons and daugthers, who are walking in the darkness, You are calling us to lead them back to You
--Tear Down the Walls (Hillsongs)

The pass two days (including todays), I met people who are hardened before God, who are reluctant to even to listen to testimony of God. One was ignorant when it come to music; One is ignorant when it come to knowing God, even with revival happening around his friends back in his hometown; One is ignorant in accepting God's characteristics in our lives; One has ignorant parents who will reject Christian girlfriends and one that keep feeling lost in his life.

This is something which start to keep remind me of our general calling, to stand in the gap, between the living and the dead. Simple to say but hard to actually start conversing and evangelizing. And this just remind me of my burden. Friends that are not safe. Although I still find it hard to actually to shed tears for the lost, but I pray that God will reinvigorate me with Passion and Fire and to be more concerned off those lost.

My vision & mission
1. I want to die only after I see all my friends confirmed saved.
2. Grant me the revival of UTP!!
3. I want to see Chancellor Complex to become a place to worship God one day..

A burden to bear, a life with a purpose, Christians! Time to awaken! Time to rise up for God! To share the Glory of Our God! Be strong and courageous like Joshua, be humbled like Jesus, Be filled with wisdom like King Solomon. With everything, go all out for God. Rise up, oh ye destined generation for God!!

Pray hard to God, don't let our fire die down. So long we have the passion, we can bring unspeakable changes...=D By faith I claim this promise.

TESTIMONY!
Thanks God for my Digital Electronic I project. Thank Him for His wisdom and thank Him for guiding my way in the project. I design everything from zero; displayed seven segment and was successfully able to run the project! Others modify taken senior idea, can only display in binary form and is still working on the project! Praise God for His wisdom and His might in helping me to accomplish most of my things (especially the project) ahead of my planned schedule. Thanks God for everything! =D

Prayer Meeting 3/11/2010

Today's prayer meeting only attended by 6 people including Bro Chee Lim. Everyone is busy on their tests and etc, and today's prayer meeting is almost the end. It's still uncertain whether we are holding any of them next week. As usual we begun our prayer meeting updating our past week. Then followed by Praise and Worship, song entittled Jesus, we enthrone you. We commenced our discussion with question. What is serving? Some answered; serving is a two-way communication, just like a customer and the cashier, some mentioned about the willing to do something and to do things for others. The subsequent food thing to ponder is Why must we serve? Some answered Serving can give joy, some say in return's God's grace we could do the least to re-pay HIM, and some got inspired by the holy scripture "For Jesus is here to serve, not to be served."

Then we move on to Bible Sharing session. Today every scriptures will be shared regarding serving~.
[N.I.V] Matthew 20: 26~28
A Mother's Request


²⁶ Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, ²⁷ and whoever wants to be first must be your slave— ²⁸ just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

--> Even Jesus, the Son of God have to serve too. The Lord does not matter what action you did to serve HIM; either big or small, but then more importantly towards the attitude and also the motive. Through serving we can transform our character even more towards Christ-like. If we didn't transform in one another way, ask God why you didn't transform; probably HE will ask you to change in certain areas where doesn't satisfy HIM.

 

[N.IV] Malachi 3: 14~18
Robbing God

 ¹⁴ “You have said, ‘It is futile to serve God. What do we gain by carrying out his requirements and going about like mourners before the LORD Almighty? ¹⁵ But now we call the arrogant blessed. Certainly evildoers prosper, and even when they put God to the test, they get away with it.”  

--> It's true that for now the evildoers escape from all the actions above for now. But how long will that last?


[N.I.V] Matthew 22: 8~12
The Parable of Wedding Banquet

⁸ “Then he said to his servants, ‘The wedding banquet is ready, but those I invited did not deserve to come. ⁹ So go to the street corners and invite to the banquet anyone you find.’ ¹⁰ So the servants went out into the streets and gathered all the people they could find, the bad as well as the good, and the wedding hall was filled with guests.
   ¹¹ “But when the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. ¹² He asked, ‘How did you get in here without wedding clothes, friend?’ The man was speechless.

-->This parable has a relation of "The day when Jesus return" . By God's grace we are offered with salvation, nevertheless we still need to prepare ourselves before the Lord arrives. What would you expect when Jesus comes back? If we don't prepare ourselves from now, what would you going to present when Jesus questions you? The ugly side of us where we wonder around with bottle of beer getting drunk? Therefore, we need to work hard to maintain a close relationship with HIM. It also relates to the last Sunday sermon whereby we need to work hard in our lives. This is because God promises blessings and rewards when we worked hard.

The main culprit where we are getting further away from God is because of bad influences. Keep clinging on God in any situation and do not lose Faith. God Bless~

Dreadful deeds

Urgh, it's been stressful weeks for me these days. Not about relationships, work, finance and etc...but main thing that only can stress me is academics~ This is because i've failed in answering most of the questions appeared in my test paper; Geological Mapping Technique. Thanks to the Holy Spirit, it calmed me down for quite sometime...That's not the story of it, the main point is I've hurt God's heart once again T_T by doing someting that makes him displeasure. Now i'm filled with guilt due to the sin that i've commited. I felt more sad than failing my paper now and I feel God is one step further away from me. I know how painful it is when someone you love hurt you~ I tried my best all these while to endure to ressist it, but then as the human's nature of sinning, I can;t believe I did it AGAIN =(. Elden shared with me a verse; Leviticus 15:1-33. Though it says we won't be clean for a certain period of time, instead I took the whole small chapter as source of encouragement to repent and not to repeat the sin again~ Within the time of "unclean" I will try my best to cling on God as I wont lost in Faith. I believe by Faith that one day I will be able to oversome this sin as I will declare
God is my victory~

Sorry Lord for the sin that I have done... Please Forgive me~

Burdens 2/11/2010

I'm sure that it's not only me that is bogged down by assignments, tests, quizzes, final exams and projects at this final week of the lecture. And throughout the last week and also this week, everything just revolve around two words for me. First is burden. Second is submitting.

BURDEN
How do we define burden? Something that is not done in our comfort zone i guess. And most of the time, the problem of me/us nowadays is the attitude of countering burden. When we feel free and easy, it's so easy to say, God you take control, God you are my strength, God you are good etc etc. But when we start to feel the weight of our burdens, and for me, is just the projects and homeworks to do, It just get harder to say those things that I mentioned just now. We start focusing on our things, trying to get it done, but most of the time, we forget God.. And that will lead to depression, stress etc etc. And only then we come to God. Human nature isn't it? We tend to put God as the last resort, at the hopeless situation's solution/the only-to-be-use-when-all-seems-lost situation. But God is good, when we come back to Him, He will help us, since He is never far away, but only us that is far away from Him. But let's try our best to skip the last resort action type of habit. =D

SUBMITTING
One thing that I start to realize is what is meant by submitting. Submitting means to surrender fully, 100% to God. Very easy to be said, but how about apply. Just last week, I forgot how, but I was in such a situation that I'm unable to finish or get myself ready for the Circuit Theory test 3. The killer subject. Thank God for reminding me to rely on Him. And when I rely on Him, it's sounds something like this that time. God, tomorrow the test I submit myself wholly onto you. I am under prepared, but with You, anything is impossible, Please help me to finish my test well tomorrow. And so, by God's grace, I was able to answer almost everything in the test paper and some with confident also. So, you see, God's grace is always there if we submit to Him. And what I mean by submitting now is that you still continue to believe that God will guide you, even though in human mind set, the goal is so impossible to achieve and to believe in His promise to guide us. Now that's submitting. =D


Burden in rest, submission required
Matthew 11:28--Come to me those who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. This verse was mentioned in church, by God's wisdom by reading the bible for lots of time this week. And a recent video carry me also reminds me that God's burden. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light--Matthew 11:30. So what it meant is that we put our burdens, our worldly burden to God, all those killer projects etc etc. And we exchange it for another yoke, a Godly one, which is to do His job. How to say His job, it's to love, to stay optimistic, to have the fruits of the Spirit, to be concerned about the lost and also our personal burdens and God-sized assignments. As we focus on God's assignments and tasks, surely God will reward us with others cause we sure know that God will reward our sowing a hundered folds. Amen to that! =D

So, one thing I wanted to learn is to be submissive in all situation, to be optimistic in all problems and hopelessness, rejoice and give thanks in god in everything, Speak in tongue more to praise and also to let the Spirit take control, and also to be reinvigorated by God's fire and passion for revival. I must not forget God's imminent revival in UTP. It's getting blurred this day. It's time to refocus on God. ~turn your eyes, upon Jesus...~

Joshua 1:7--Be strong and courageous, Be careful to obey all the laws my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or left, that you may be SUCCESSFUL WHEREVER you go.

God bless and HIS will be done! Amen!!